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12:34

I have always had a thing for watches. Ever since young I loved collecting watches. From fancy pink to matte black, I had all the colours. It was like a trend years ago when you wear colourful watches matching your outfits. You are considered to be the cool kid when you own many watches. As I grow up, i realised that colourful watches aren't as cool as I thought it was and nothing is better than sticking with one watch which can be used for a long time.
When I was 18, I bought my very first expensive watch. Black and shiny. The moment I saw it, I knew that it is the one! It was love at first sight I would say. It was so beautiful and I couldnt take my eyes off. Ever since I bought the watch, I stayed loyal to it. No affairs with any other watches. I stopped looking at any other watch as my whole love was already given to the black shiny watch that I own right now. At least, I was loyal  enough to the watch than I was in any relationships.
The watch and I had a good relationship. For 5 years, we were madly in love. Yeah, sometimes, it would give up on me by 'dying'.  I had to re-fix my relationship by giving it a new 'life' (battery). But, things never changed.
One day, I cheated on my watch. I bought a new watch. I had no idea why did I buy a new watch when my black shiny was still in a good condition. I didnt even think twice before I cheat. I was having a good time with my new red watch and have totally forgotten about my black shiny watch. And one night, i had a dream. A dream that i should have taken serious.  I dreamt like black shiny has died exactly at 12:34.
I am a person who believes in the power of the universe. In a day, I will at least see the time 12:34 for once. Either in the morning or at midnight, I'll definitely see the time at least once a day, no matter how busy am I. So, I did not take the dream I had about balck and shiny as a serious one.
Days passed. I missed my black and shiny. So i looked for it and found it somewhere in my bagpack. I took the watch out exactly at 12:34. I remember the time because i accidentally looked at my clock on my laptop's desktop while looking for my black and shiny. And i looked at my black and shiny, it was showing 12:34 as well. I laughed at myself how silly I can be thinking that there is a hidden message by universe to me and continued to do whatever work I was doing before I started looking for black and shiny.
Hours passed. I was in the middle of doing something and had a glance on my black and shiny. And my heart stopped for a moment. Black and shiny had stopped working exactly at 12:34 on the 19th of March, which was the day after I had my dream about the watch. I.....
.... To be continued....

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